We aren't compatible

Today, thought about you several times however it was an extremely busy day. I did get my weave today, it's cool. I know, I know you don't like weaves. This morning, I reread your email where you stated I said we weren't compatible. I kept thinking when did I say that. While I was brushing my teeth this morning it dawned on me, I said we weren't compatible when I was trying to get you to give me some space. Since 2004, I haven't been sure we weren't compatible. I said we weren't compatible to get you to stop pushing me. I know this would be a foreign concept for you. You are very deliberate with your words, you mean what you say and say what you mean. You would have found a way to say, you need your space without saying things you didn't believe were true. I probably got bad advice. I was told, after repeated attempts to get you to stop pushing the only thing I could do was lead you to believe there was no chance. I can say with 100% certainly, I never came to a conclusion that you weren't the one or weren't compatible. That's what was so difficult, because I had concerns but could never say nope you aren't the one. I wasn't sure if you were the one but knew you possible could be the wrong. It would have been so easy to end things if I felt for certain you weren't the one. I was worried, I liked you because you were a nice and not because I was passionately in love with you. Its weird how this has come back to haunt me. I wonder how you don't know deep down that I don't feel. How come we got along so well