Fast Forward April 9, 2008

He asked about the watch. It was crushing to think he thought it best to return the watch to really let me know he has no desire. Tears are welling in my eyes now...why couldn't I have figured this out sooner. Learning to forgive Keely 07 is going to be hard. I have to remember things happen for a reason you wouldn't have gotten here without going through the last period of separation. Maybe, this is the final test. Even though I know this, I still want to turn back the hands of time. Why couldn't we see the vision of us at the same time. Our vision is so beautiful, building and sharing a life together. I see our little boy in my dreams...he is rough and tough, always getting hurt and he walks like his Dad. I have stolen the magic of our relationship. Thinking about life without him is so painful. We have shared so many tender moments and trials, I want us to have the peace and happiness that comes after the storm. Our relationship has been a series of ups and downs preparing for marriage. I haven't been able to stay away from him more than a few months. There's a stirring deep within could it be my time has come...this songs gives me a moment of pause.