My Diamond is lost

This weekend, I had a wonderful time with the love of my life. Every time I looked or touched him, I just knew I was looking at my husband. I kept thinking about our future. What it will be like to spend the next 50 years with this person. I had such hope in my heart that he thought we were forever. Yesterday, I received a devastating email...he has no desire to revisit us. This news rocks me to my core...I was so hopeful. I knew this could be one of the outcomes but I had hoped our love was eternal...could even withstand me. I understand why he feels the way he does. I cut him deeply. To really understand my loss, I must start from the beginning.