April 08, 2008 Begging

I begged for a second chance. I told him he doesn't have to do the work. He doesn't..he already has done the work. Let me take care of you. My family keeps asking what are you going to do. I don't have a plan. On one hand I want to show Max like he always showed me...he never took no for an answer. On the other, I don't want him to start feeling obligated to respond or talk to me. On the other, I want him to see that I am serious. On the other, I am not being respectful of his wishes...that he doesn't have the desire to revisit us. I don't know. The mystery of life. Why can't you see the forest for the trees? What I was looking for was right in front of me.