How did Max Move On

I want to call Max now and ask him how did he get over me. What did he do when he felt this way. What did he tell himself? What did he do? Right now, I can't figure it out. I'm in this phase of complete confusion and shock. I can't move. My body feels so heavy. My mind is heavy. When I tell my friends about my blog they all want to read it. I'm not sure about letting people read my personal thoughts. It's like letting people read your diary. I have told them all no. I kind of like my secret blog.